Crusin’ Down the Slippery Slope: How I Deconstructed My Faith At Seminary

The following is an excerpt from a chapter that I am contributing to a book about and by evangelicals who fell through the bottom of their faith and deconstructed hard. Except for sharing on social media the following should not be copied or used otherwise. It’s personal and real though there is much more to my story that is in the chapter and not here. But still, enjoy.

The Slippery Slope of Black and White

Given the personal circumstances I found myself in after one year of Seminary, I slowly started dissembling the evangelical bulwark. One beautiful thing with tightly knit systems of thought is that once one piece of it goes broke the whole building disintegrates. Once one piece topples, the whole system becomes a cascading row of dominos. This process can take a couple of years but for those who do not shy away from the challenges and manage to avoid the boomerang effect (the snapping back to the old paradigm upon returning to one’s original community of faith), the collapse is unavoidable.

It was halfway through my second year or so that I realized faith was starting to slip away. Or I should say, I realized that the scaffolding of the theological paradigm that enables a certain imagination of faith (but that also sets its parameters) was…